“Hearts may break but they would also heal”
THE TRUTH ABOUT BEING UNEQUALLY YOKED
The bird looked at the fish, his gaze extending longingly, almost too long for words to describe. No words could perfectly describe this moment or how his heart hurt. Either way, he felt empty (More like dead inside). Letting go or hanging on, whoever said this decision was easy was a fool. Over the years, Nemo had come to mean more to him than he could explain. He remembered the first time he had set his eyes on her. He had been flying lazily over the sky to pass time, then almost like clockwork, he had seen her swimming so beautifully in the ocean, her tail flexing back and forth as she navigated her way across the ocean. He could tell in that moment that that was her zone, and oh, how she owned the place.
*In the bird’s words*
I should have known then, heck, I think I knew, we were never meant to be. I remember watching her for days, each day I would fly to the same spot just to watch her swim and once, I was almost sure she saw me there but trust her to act like she didn’t. Eventually, I got tired of passing time and decided to just make myself known. I screeched in the finest way I knew how and I wasn’t sure if it would get her attention but for some reason, it did. And, like a dream, I heard her whistle back. If I wasn’t already flying, I’m sure my heart would have soared as high as it could. Fast forward 2 years down the line, after much trying and laughter and loving, we knew it was over. We had tried, we really had. No matter how much chemistry there was between us, we were never close enough to get the best of each other’s presence. Not for lack of trying because that was all we ever did – try. But we knew now, some things are never meant to be. To be together, one of us had to sacrifice our lives. One had to die in order for the flame to stay alive. She leaves the water to be with me and she dies because she needs water to breath AKA survive. I can’t leave the sky to be with her because all I know how to do is fly.
So here we are, stuck. Longing so much for each other but knowing that we can’t have it. They say the worst thing that can happen to a person is to die, to lose all hope or to lose at life. I disagree. The worst thing that can happen to a man is to let go of the one thing you need the most because in doing that, you die a little inside (actually, you die a lot), you lose all hope and you immediately start to feel like you’re losing at life. All three of those things happen all at once and in the worst versions imaginable. I don’t even want to go into the depths of the pain that you wallow in, constantly feeling like you’re drowning and being strangled at the same time. What do you do when you can’t have what you want the most? What do you do when your heart feels like it’s breaking into a million pieces? What do you do when what feels right is wrong, when it breaks you apart and being away kills you more than you care to admit?
I looked into her eyes for the last time, and as the tear fell from my eyes, ignoring the soulful look in her eyes, (that same look that had put me here in the first place), I gathered my wings under the weight of the wind and I just flew away, as far as I could, as far as my wings could take me, I just flew.
I wrote this short story thinking about the fact that no matter how much a bird and a fish were in love, they could never make it work. This is the truth about being unequally yoked. There was something that trended on twitter some weeks back (#Hurtbae) Basically a video between a guy and a lady in which the lady wanted closure as to why the guy had hurt her in the ways that he did. I watched that video and also the comments and outrage afterwards and all i could think of was this – A person cannot give what he doesn’t have.
Dear beautiful man/woman, remember who you are and even more importantly, whose you are. You are priceless and like an eagle, you were made to fly. This is your default setting. I’ll also like to quickly add that being unequally yoked doesn’t just border on faith related issues (believer and unbeliever) This also applies to situations where you are being treated less than you’re worth. You don’t have to just ‘deal with it’ or just ‘manage it’ you weren’t even designed to just ‘settle’ There is nothing cute about dysfunction honey. So what do you do when what feels right is wrong for you? When you what you want is not what you need? If you’re caught in this situation, what do you do?
Let go. Don’t walk away, don’t run away. Just fly
Fly as far and as high up as you can
Because darling, you were made to fly.
Just a side note – The beautiful thing about this is the higher up you fly, the closer you get to your creator and all-time best friend and even if your wings fail you and you fall, he’s waiting to catch you.
He shall cover you with his feathers; you will take refuge under his wings. His faithfulness will be a protective shield. (HCSB version)